I am Jenna...I am a mom of three beautiful children, a wife to a great man, I have passion but no drive. I love to plan but I am terrible at follow through. Im writting a blog. I believe this is my 3rd one I have started.

I am hoping that by being a site that is for my home town which is so similar to the website I am addicted to maybe I will spend enough time on here that I can actually keep up with this thing.

Its not that im a slow typer or my thoughts come faster than my fingers. Im actually at a good pace. But I find that something more important comes along. Ill watch a tv show I recorded and really could watch at any time. Or the kids need something from me. Or im just too tired to care.

This time I am going to try and be different.

Write what you know and know what you write.

Thats the old saying right???

I am pretty sure I know me. But in the off chance I am a little lost in myself maybe I can find a way back.

So I told you who I am...see sentence one.

Now...I enjoy photography. I want to go back to school so that I can learn more about the craft I enjoy. I sort of hate the fact that everyone made such a big deal of me enjoying photography. I started to steer away from it. Thats not what I want to do at all. I lost my love along the way and I plan to get it back.

I also love to cook. I do it nightly lol. I have a few favorite dishes I make but I will leave that for later when I have made one of those meals. Tonight we have freakin amazing chicken nuggets from Neecii's I really dont know how to spell it but its the aborglinal store on Dufferin. Great store some really neat finds.

Tuesday's are date night in my house. Me and my hubby try to get out of the house every tuesday usually we go and see a movie. Its only 3 bucks at the cheap seats, why the heck not right.

Tonight we didnt end up going to see a movie. We were both tired, just went over to Triple B's for a little while, and had my nephew babysit. It was an easy babysitting job for him. All the kids were in bed by the time he got here.

He is the only family I have left. No No...I didnt loose the rest of my family to death, sometimes I think that would have been easier.

For 6 years I have been battling my family on the subject of my hubby. Among the problems of my family being crazy. For example my sister called my nephew tonight and said that he was only allowed to stay here until 930 because he had to be home by 10. She was actually screaming at him on the phone because she didnt want him at my house when she didnt have my phone number. ( I didnt give my family my new number, so that I wouldnt have to deal with them anymore. I was looking for a fresh start)

Maybe thats terrible of me but I love my husband and one day we will get married, we have three children together and in this day and age, my generation that is almost unheard of.

We love each other we have had our problems like any relationship does but we get through it.

My dad basically told me that if I ever went back to him after one break up that he would never speak to me again. So needless to say I have no spoken to him much in the last few months. Im not sure if he knows we are back together but regardless he put that on me and I didnt think that was right.

My mom is well in short terms, crazy. She has been on antidepressents for so long that it doesnt look as though she will ever be able to be taken off of them. Sad I know but it gets worse. 3 years ago in April my parents broke up after 35 and a half years. Yah I know freaking long time. I freakin idolized there relationship not knowning how bad it actually was. At any rate. Over the last three years my mother will talk about my father all the time and repeated say that he will come back to her one day. Even after my father started dating and then living with and bought a house with her "best friend". Yes I know you must think my family is really screwed up and its really sad for my mom. But try being around her for more than 30 mins. She cannot have a conversation with someone without even once mentioning my fathers name. No matter how dates she has attempted to go on she doesnt move on. ANd with that she continues to act like the 17 year old girl she was when she got married.

Being around my mother and father and sister make me feel worse about myself. My family kept telling me that I was a different person when I wasnt around my man. But the thing is they were right. But I wasnt being myself. I was being the young girl I use to be when I was surrounded by those people.

I do have a brother as well. He has been clinically diagnosed as crasy and yet I think he is the most sain one of us all. His creative art work is not always to my taste as we are both photographers of course he is the only one who has been paid for his work.

You know that another thing that bothers me. Two years ago I did my sisters wedding. The whole damn thing. All the photos. ANd I didnt even get so much as a Thank You when it was all done. I was hoping they would pay me even though I had said you know I will do this for you but they knew I was just starting out. Nope Nothing.

However that is all going to change this year. I have my first clients. They are friends of mine but they are extremely happy to have me as there photographer.

Now if only we could get there engagement photos done already.

Well I feel as though I have been rambling on too long but another day, another blog.

Thanks for listening if you were there!